I put my girls to bed as usual, last night. I read them a bedtime story, chatted for a bit about their day, recited a few surahs and du’a, hugged and kissed them good night.
Then Ayra asked me to urut her knee. And then Raina also requested me to urut hers as well (she likes to follow whatever her sister does hehe). So I sat on the floor, in between their beds and urut them – one hand massaging Ayra’s knee, and another hand massaging Raina’s knee.
I told them that when I get older and sakit, they would have to urut and take care of me as well, just like I did to them.
Raina replied ‘okay’, but Ayra was awfully quiet.
And then I heard her sob.
OMG. She cried!
“I don’t want you to get older and sakit, nanti you die and I don’t have mommy anymore”.
I hugged her tightly and whispered that mama’s here and I’m not going to die yet (and okay, I cried a little).
I was so touched!
“If you love mama, you have to make du’a to Allah and ask Him to protect me and let me live long enough so I can be with you”, I said and gave her a kiss.
“I love you mama”.
I love you, sayang. Both of you, so very much.
O God, be kind to me through the survival of my children,
setting them right for me, and allowing me to enjoy them.
My God, make long their lives for me,
increase their terms, bring up the smallest for me,
strengthen the weakest for me,
rectify for me their bodies, their religious dedication, and their moral traits,
make them well in their souls, their limbs,
and everything that concerns me of their affair,
and pour out for me and upon my hand their provisions!
Make them pious, fearing, insightful, hearing,
and obedient toward Thee, loving and well-disposed toward Thy friends,
and stubbornly resistant and full of hate toward all Thy enemies! Amen!
O God, through them strengthen my arm,
straighten my burdened back, multiply my number,
adorn my presence, keep alive my mention,
suffice me when I am away, help me in my needs,
and make them loving toward me, affectionate, approaching, upright, obedient,
Never disobedient, disrespectful, opposed, or offenders!
Help me in their upbringing, their education, and my devotion toward them,
give me among them from Thyself male children,
make that a good for me, and make them a help for me in that which I ask from Thee!
Give me and my progeny refuge from the accursed Satan,
for Thou hast created us, commanded us, and prohibited us, and made us desire
the reward of what Thou hast commanded, and fear its punishment!